My back hurts like mad.
the spine area not sure why is it like this but i'm worried.
am i gonna be paralys?
sooooo sleepy yet need to wake up at 4 plus tml for attachment.

I may look unaffected but seriously i'm bloody hell affected by it.
i should have know from the
start this was going to happened.
shouldn't even have high hopes
should keep telling myself he's playing with me.
nothing he said means anything.
And i meant nth to him at all.....
BUT i kept falling into the trap
falling deeper and deeper
i love him.

yes i do,
and i'm feeling so guilty from it.
he's going to lie to me
he will................