我受够了等待
你所谓的安排
说的未来到底多久才来
总是要来不及才知道我可爱
我想依赖而你却都不在
应该开心的地带
你给的全是空白
一个人假日发呆找不到人陪我看海
我在幸福的门外却一直都进不来
你累积给的伤害我是真的很难释怀
终于看开爱回不来
而你总是太晚明白
最后才把话说开
哭着求我留下来
终于看开爱回不来
我们面前太多阻碍
你的手却放不开
宁愿没出息求我别离开
你总是要我乖慢慢计划将来
我的眼泪却一直掉下来
过去怎么交代
你该给的信赖
被你亲手缓缓推入悬崖
从我脸上的苍白
看到记忆慢下来
过去甜蜜在倒带只是感觉已经不在
而我对你的期待
被你一次次摔坏
已经碎成太多块要怎么拼凑跟重来
终于看开爱回不来
而你总是太晚明白
最后才把话说开
哭着求我留下来
终于看开爱回不来
我们面前太多阻碍
你的手却放不开
宁愿没出息求我别离开
终于看开爱回不来
而你总是太晚明白
最后才把话说开
哭着求我留下来
终于看开爱回不来
我们面前太多阻碍
你的手却放不开
宁愿没出息求我别离开

this song can explain..
what am i feeling now.

'I DONT SEE ANY REPENTENCE FROM YOU!'
this was what she said to me..
what the F*** had i done??!!

how i wish i could just slap her and asked her to shut up!
please.
dont blow you freaking temper towards me
when is not due to me?
get ur mind CLEAR!
dont talk rubbish with me.
we made a deal that i could meet my bf once every week..
and now you're using it against me.

after hearing what you said..
i seriously felt so demoralised..
i dont even feel like studying anymore...

A Journey Called Life / 金石良緣
had been watching this show recently..
seriously admired one of the couple.
the girl was so bad in the past.
but because the guy love her so much.
he did not blame her for anything..
i was amazed by their love..

didnt went for sports carnival today.
after going for 5 years.
decided to skip this years..

i'm bored to death..
luckily i had chips:)
my maid has been so nice.
by replanishing junk foods for me:)
and at the same time cutting fruits for me very night.
so i guess i'm having a balance diet uh?

shall study in a while time
for my up coming chinese exam.
aiming for A1!

today's post will be about my girlfriends:)

i'm missing those times during school.
when we're all in school together.
we're angry, sad, happy, disappointed with each other at times.
but in the end we still get back together.
and we're still there for each other..
maybe there'll be people thinking.
why or how can we be so close?
well. its simply because.
we trust,
we care,
we concern
about each other:)

there is a saying,
friends are not forever.
BUT
i believe the memories we had will be forever:)
so no matter how drifted we're now.
we do know we still care for each other a lot:)



we indeed knw each other for a very long time.

part of the cliques...
group photos.

individual photos..

truely indeed we are destine to be good friends..

haas..

she's the annoying and irritating one.

but she does have her unique point..

she's the peace maker.

and a teenager with a kiddy face

haas!

our adviser.

plus thinker.

whenever we need to solve problems..

well..

i lost my phone few months back.

it had tonns of their individual photos back then.

which explains why each pics of them includes me now.

and yi xian i'm sorry!!

i do not have ur pics with me...

yupp thats all:)

i'm feeling so down now..

HAHA!
i'm lucky today...

well..
there's a sad news..
rachh's dog bi bi passed away ytr..
just wanna say.
be strong rachh!

bought the neutrogina wave just now..
hmm. kind of fun to use?
like the smell.
but skin care which contains fragrance is not good for the skin.
so i wont be using that often i guess?
it does cleanses the face really well..
better thn manually..
haas..

next monday would be my O lvl mother tongue.
and i just knew it today..
ohmy mama..
shall start memorising all the idioms till the day of the exam::))

so are they?
my beloved lovelies<3

time is passing so fast..
reach home so early but
in a flash its night time.
can the time slow down?

i've always wanted to forget about my past.
but i was wondering why
everytime i let it go
it comes back again.
if i were to go back
i'll stopped everything that had screw up my life.
but i cant.
so what if i've continue to live my life?
so what if i've learnt from my mistake?
there'll be ppl who is going to use it to bring me down.

today was doing my target setting.
english->B4-C5
previously-D7
chinese->A1-A2
previously-B3
science->B4-C5
previously-D7
maths->B3-B4
previously-C6
humanities->B4-C5
previously-E8
expected L1R4-16 to 21
well i'm aiming for a realistic one.

had chinese oral ytr.
me:so did i passed?
teacher:of course pass la you so fluent how to fail you
me:smile shyly
teacher:if you can use idiom sure can get full mark
after hearing that i was in cloud 9:))
what a great motivation i've got:)

something is telling me.
i'm happy!
sad.
disappointed.
angry.
i'm feeling so emotional now.

i failed my english and science.
passed my maths and chinese again.
waiting for geography and social studies result.
expected to fail ss and pass geo.
cos i did not study enough for ss..

i shall start speaking english from now on.
just like what i did 2 years back.
to improve my english..
it really helped me a lot.
when i mean a lot.
its really a lot.
from a F9 to a B3:)
but it was 2 years back..
hope i can do it again!

will someone motivate me!

had dinner again ytr night
need to rush out now..
shall elaborate more when i get home:)

first of all..

i would like to thank..

Miss GRACE LIM HUAN LIN

and Mr CHEW GANGYI

for saving my wallet:)))
thank you supe uper uber much...

met them at starbuck.

which i had left my wallet on the tray with tissue covering it..

oh my!!

how clever can i be huh??

my mind was wondering off today..

well.. basically..

we walked to a 62 bus stop and waited for bus..

when the bus came i took with a pack of humans..

thn i found out i lost my wallet!!!!

luckily the bus driver didnt catch me for not tapping..

i called grace and told her bout it..

she asked me to think carefully where i left..

i told her i think i left it at starbucks..

so my 2 saviour took cab down to starbucks..

JUST FOR ME!

oh my GOD!!

and thank god they found it

i'm like so fortunate can:)))

went home to get cash to take bus back..

THANK YOU SOOOOOOO MUCH!!!!

i'll never forget ur kindness..

even thought my wallet only contains $2++

but the stuff inside are so important to me..

the pics my hubby gave me..

my IC Ez-link POSB card..

cant imagine if i lose it!

NO more next time!

last paper of the day!!!!
seriously forgotten a number of stuff..
shall study even harder..
and i can sure get it!
i'm feeling sick..
damn sick..

had bed bug bite today in school.
and my legs were swollen!!!
Mrs may tan was so nice..
she get me a new chair and the swell went down:)
classroom is damn DUSTY!
and my skin are like hyper sensitive now..
any dust falls on me..
it'll swell like nobody's business..

and i notice something..
i was having flu since tues..
and today i notice ppl beside and behind me had flu too!
alright flu is really bad!
it spreads so fast!

chitmin said my dark circle is really bad:(((
oh my:(((((((

i'm going to learn how to face it..
i'm really sick of listening everything...
i dont want to listen hear or whatever anymore..
it more then enought already!

i'll be kind of busy for for these few days due to Mid year..
will blog maybe on fri or sat.
i'll be having dinner with ivon gail an rachh:)))
miss them yeah:)

happy mothers' day

alright second post for the day again..

celebrated mothers' day today..
ppl missing were my dad, 3rd sis and my brother:(
if not it would have been more noise..
haas..

had korean food
prepared by my 1st sister..
well all we did was
eating chatting spamming pics to our phones..
haas..

one thing..
my 4th sis was talking bout stocks..
they regretted not buying if not they would have earn now..
thn i turn to her and said..
if i would have know i would have been in poly now..
and she stared at me for a split seconds
and
.
.
burst out laughing-.-

another story said by my 4th sis..
while her daughter was having music lesson..
the teacher let them hold the violin and ask their parents to take photos..
FYI: my bro in law hp was the old old without camera ones..
so he acted blurr as if he didnt hear
while others was busying taking photos with their hp..
my niece was posing and waiting..
suddenly!
my sis called him asking him what they want to eat.
that was when everyone knew why he didnt took photos..
the next day my bro in law straight away
went to buy a brand new phone!
and spamm all his kids photos in it..
haas.. what a joke..

alright i shall let the pics do the talking..


ain't she ADORABLE!!!


she's been soooo cute and huggable..
which i cant take my hands off her..

i seriously think she looks like PONYO:)

my 6th sis joined in with the kissing..

my 2nd sis:))

well.. she had been requesting me to take a slimmer view of her..

this was the best i can do.

the rest she look kind of larger..

she's preparing for babies.

so she cant slim down for the time being..

2nd sis requested to take photos with her hubby..

she really do brighten up my night:)!

i was sending them down and suddenly she turn to me and said..

'yiyi so pretty'

everyone in the lift was shocked and stunned

and started laughing again:)

awwww so sweet of her..

alright..
what song shall i put today..
well this song came across me while i was listening in my MP3..
i like this song so much before too:)
the song name is
'diary of jane'
not every will likes it..

shirley is missing..
she cant find herself back..
she had been thrown into the deepest pit..
that no matter how long a rope can be
can never pull her up...
she does not even wan to come out anymore..
yupp.. she wans to run away from everything..
she cant take it and face it anymore..
she's not as strong as she thinks..
she's not as strong as anyone think she is..
she's a foolish girl that put trust on wrong ppl.
thinking so childishly..
so naive thinking..
what the F*** was i thinking?

冷咖啡離開了杯墊
我忍住的情緒在很後面
拼命想挽回的從前
在我臉上依舊清晰可見
最美的不是下雨天
是曾與你躲過雨的屋檐
回憶的畫面
在蕩著秋千 夢開始不甜
你說把愛漸漸 放下會走更遠
又何必去改變 已错过的时间
你用你的指尖 阻止我說再見
想象你在身邊 在完全失去之前
你說把愛漸漸 放下會走更遠
或許命運的簽 只讓我們遇見
只讓我們相戀 這一季的秋天
飄落後才發現 這幸福的碎片
要我怎麼撿

this song was the song i liked so much..
there's so much songs i like..
but eventually i skipped them away..

shirley is not feeling fine..
her mind is wondering with so much stuff..
things are coming back..
OH MY GOD!

i hate english lessons now..
Mdm ng like chew mui mui's DOG!
cant she have her own stand?
cheww mui mui ask her talk she talk.
ask her keep quiet she keep quiet..

most of my new classmates have the same thinking as me:)
i'm asking this question again..
if u have a time machine..
would u go to the past or future?
well most of my friends said they would go to the future..
but my new classmates chose the past..
we felt that if we go to the future and get to see how well we're doing..
when we come back surely we'll have the mindset of
well, since my future is so good i can just slack off alittle..
and try to be complacent...
thn if we chose to go back to past..
we can amend all the regrets and mistake
and our future would be better..
well this was just a question..
this would never happen..
haas..




how i wish my hair is this long again..
how i wish i'm there looking at the scenary..
how i wish the wind is blowing against me..
how i wish time would stop..
how i wish i could change everything..
how i wish..................................

my hair now is HORrIBLE!

today Mdm Ng was so demoralising..
was holding back my tears while she was saying..

having stomache cramp!
and its unbearable..
and i needed the toilet badly during physic lesson..
gues what?!
Mdm ee thought i was tricking her..
and does not allow me to go.
WTF?

after school gail came to find me:)
finally get to see her..
kind of miss her..
haas..
had KFC:)
and agnes came..

after lunch.
went home.
and here i am blogging..
well.. nothing much to say..
i'm gonna take a break and study harder!
i'm not gonna let history repeat itself..
i'm not gonna break again when i take my results!
NEVER!

school was alright,
next week will be the mid year exam..
hope i'll do well in it:)

when i came back from school..
my maid gave me something!
its a extremly big packet of KO KO KRUNCH!!!
haas.. was hugging the box and took pics of it.
haas..

i'm home early today:)
i'm tired-_-..

2nd post

A RANDOM ONE

oh my..
clicking on my ex classmates link..
which i spend my 5 years education with them..
but i didnt get to go up with them..
thinking of it kind of hurts..
i may look excited going back..
but this was just an excuse to cheer myself up..

i still have to wear the same uniform i wore for 5 yrs..
white shoes..
black hair..
neat hair style..
the only similarities is..
we met new friends..

everytime i walked home before and after school.
i would think of this..
'how i wish i'm in poly now..
how i wish.....'
even in class i would suddenly turn to my new classmates..
whom i know of course!
telling them i wanna go poly!

this feeling sucks..
now i know how retainees felt..
the feelin is terrible..

well well..

now school seems to be like sars period..

everyone has to have a thermometer to get in school..

those temperature higher thn 37.6 has to go home..

we have to take temperature 2 times a day..

school staff are wearing mask?

is it that serious?

i think so..

my temperature hits 37.3 during my second take..

i was like.

'gosh! 3 more degree to go home!'

haas.. lame i know..

drew during my free period..

seriously like this pic a LLOOT!!!

i know my dawing is farrr from the original one..

but i did put in effort! has..

alright time to study:)

the original and mine:)

happy 4th month:)

took lots of pics..
around 70++..
shall update other day..
kind of lazy..
opps:x

alright..
ytr was my last day of work.
yeah last day of work..
of course! pics were taken..
with my good buddy. dili..

manage to sold something last day of work..
haas. happy:)

ok i shall let the pics do the talking.
i'm lacking of words.