got back my freaking results..
why?
cos the results is so bad...
tat i donno where can i go...

no poly will take me in unless i'm lucky..
you must be wondering i still can go NAFA or private right?
but i cant..
my sister said they cant afford the fees for me at NAFA..
how bout private..
my sister don wan me to go cos..
anyone who got the money can go and get a diploma there..
so if wan the best is still poly..
they do make sense..
so its either i appeal for nursing or retake my o lvl again..

didnt went out with gail and ivon..
my sis told me to stay at home..
steven came to find me..
so my sis let us went out for awhile..
he treated me dinner and ice cream..
we spend $70++ on food! all his treat..
he bought me a soft toy too..
he was trying to cheer me up..
and i got my new moon book:)
it just arrived.. how lucky can i be?
he thn help me to apply for poly courses..
and not even one i can key in..
so now i can only appeal but not apply..

my sister did not scold me..
my mom did not scold me..
they console me they gave me hugs...
but i know they're feeling so disappointed now..
because my family was poor in the past..
my siblings cant further their studies due to that..
so they pinned all their hopes on me..
i was the youngest the one who get education here..
the one they can support to further study even more.
to shine in my family.
but i let them all down..
i let myself down too..
i tot i could do them proud....
i hope i could get a chance again..
to make everything right....
i would not make the same mistakes again..