after a day of my results..
i still feel the pain inside of me..
i don feel like going out..
feel like locking myself up from everything..

i kept falling backwards..
i got pulled up and fall backward again..
its so painful..

there're so many ppl encouraging and cheering me up..
i know i have to stay strong..
and face the facts..
but its so hard for me..
its so freaking hard..
there're always second tots in my mind.
if i appeal will i get in?
the chances are low but i'll still try..
if i cant should i retake?
i don wanna go back to school again..
i dont wanna retake all the subjects.
maybe this is all about my pride..
should i just bring down my pride and just study?
thn if i take as private will i get distracted?
OH MY. what should i do now?
everything is falling into pieces..

我真的好累