hais.....

suddenly listen to ivon blog song thn feel very sad...


hais... tot for quite a few days... ivon also asked me why didnt accept apple.. i do realli enjoy being wit apple but i think i knw the answer myself le.. i'm juz not ready at all.. been thru quite a number of relationship.. no one can tolerate my attitude and character.. hais.. i wanna have all the freedom but i will tend to control my bf.. sometimes i can do wat he jiu cannot do cox i dun like.. thn will end up quarreling again.. tats wat i hate most.. scared tat bf will like someone else.. yah i knw i should trust him but too bad juz no matter wat i cant feel the an quan gan thn my bf will think i dun trust him thn quarrel.. hais... tats why now i hesitate to get into another relationship.. been thru being hurt by guys and hurting guys?
hais... i dun wan anything to do wit hurt again...

I JUST DUNNO WAT SHOULD I DO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!